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Jan. 16th, 2012

i totally understand the psychological reasons behind this phenomenon, but i haven't connected with music as much as i am right now that i've got a few shots in me and it depresses me.

i can feel happy, angry, sad and every other emotion sober. experiencing things drunk gives it a certain sense of seriousness that i feel i just don't feel otherwise.

fuck fuck fuck i just can't do this to myself right now

Jul. 6th, 2011

she makes me the happiest ever :)
I love my life. And I love my beautiful girlfriend :)

Stay positive!
I love life.
Everything is going so well right now.
thinking about getting drunk. which is funny since i havn't been drunk in a long ass time. prolly going to stay sober. drinking just isn't my thing and all i really want is to get fucked up, behavior i've been trying for a year now to get rid of. so glad i got rid of my connects for pills and what nots. this situation could be a lot worse than thinking about a few drinks.

but i'm still going strong not so strong, but going.


sober sucks almost as bad as slaving away to drugs.

at least i can feel like i have a strong sense of self control.

Dec. 15th, 2010

i saw a ghost yesterday. it left me with a bunch of weird feelings that i really wish would vanish.

i hope i'm not losing my mind. and i'm hoping i'll forget about all this.

i just don't see it happening though.

not for me.

Nov. 4th, 2010

life is so amazing right now.

i love it.
did adderall last night. pretty disappointed in myself.

staying positive and learning from my mistakes.
so pumped. this is going to be nuts